Confidence

Six years ago, at the beginning of Fall on the cusp of turning 50, and after a summer in which all confidence was beginning to abandon me in many areas of my life, I put together a selection of poems and sent them out in the world. I had not attempted to publish anything for eight […]

Opportunities for Stillness

Months of healing ahead seemed a prison, a sentence of no action, and me tracking the sun across the day a way to move time. At the bank, a retired black man, warm, inviting eyes, who’d been in my shoes, said, “Healing is an opportunity for stillness.” Which knocked me down. His big, wide smile […]

Hubris

I never want to know the many things they did when they flayed open my chest, my arm, cracked my sternum and stopped my heart. Blissful ignorance is what I needed, and some drugs, buckets of them. I was reminded too much of salmon, gutted torsos, lungs, heart, parts. But that’s how they do, these magicians, these […]

The Historical Heart

Remembering everything, the heart, at last, breaks. At first, in the undulating folds as my fetus came together the cleft separated, a misaligned heart began, beating days upon days. It remembered the fall, and mother carrying me to hospital, the salt-air summers in Balboa – running full ‘round the boardwalk. The heart worked hard during […]

Selma and the Case Against the Oscars

I’m a 53 year old white guy living in one of the most diverse zip codes in the country. 98118. I love this zip code. I love the people in it. I love that, for the most part, we live harmoniously among each other despite our differences, despite our country’s lack of tolerance for diversity […]

Today is World AIDS Day: “The Democracy of Water”

December 1. It’s an interesting day to remember and/or try to stop the spread of HIV/AIDS. It’s a time for celebrating the holidays, finishing up the year, planning ahead. But it is a good time for reflection and, I suppose, any day is a good time for that. In point of fact, we cannot eradicate […]